I am now officially a nothing. I had now moved from complexity to simplicity. No more Fuzzy Thinking. From now on I deal with absolutes. Meaning, I move from ambiguity to certainty.
If it makes no sense, then I drop it. If I cannot comprehend with my 5 senses then it is not true. There are exceptions like Al Araf 7:7 and Sailbad the Sinner. But in general I don't deal with abstracts. I had been dealing with abstracts all my life, it doesn't take me anywhere. The thing is if its gonna happen it will happen whether I think about it or not.
I had taken my thoughts to the brink. Now to bring it back to the ground level. Thoughts are things. Those esoteric thoughts are real but they are not practical. I guess I only deal with thoughts that I can execute. I better omit thoughts that are too grandiose because they are too grand to be executed.
After all I want to remain small. Having a grandiose thought is an opposite of being small. It's not the small thoughts that makes me sound crazy. It's the grandiose thoughts, the unattainable thoughts that gets me into trouble.
This way I concentrate on what I can do and achieve. I am not interested to change the world. The end game of the grandiose thought is I am God. I ended having the God Complex.
I am not God, I was just having a God Complex. So I will not entertain this madness any longer. I can fight this.
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It's like stacking a Lego Set. I can stack up or I can disassemble everything.
That's the meaning of thoughts are things to me. I can keep a good thought or I can chuck away useless thought. Nothing personal.
I became crazy because I entertain my crazy thoughts. If not I am a very normal person. At this age I think I can differentiate between thoughts that I can act upon and thoughts that are merely fantasy. However I do take the thoughts to the brink like HOTS and the Flight Path. Once I realized that they are impractical, then I leave the thoughts behind. This is to satisfy the requirement of green lighting and red lighting. Both are necessary.
Who am I to change the world? I should not live my next 5 years hoping for something that will never happen. Especially if that something is a thing that I have no control of. It defies logic.
I rather focus on things that I can control on a daily basis like my Personal Flight Path and my Vision Quest. That is Personal Power.
Thank goodness I did the green lighting and after that I did the red lighting. Otherwise I won't know whether I am on the right track or not. That's the best part. I have all the tools to validate my thoughts. I am still sensible in that sense.
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So what happens next? Let's do a situational analysis:
- At this point I did myself a big favor. I get rid of the grandiose thoughts of HOTS and the Flight Path. That makes me levelheaded again. I will then look at my situation as it is. From a realistic perspective. In that sense I am back to being who I am with my 12 meters square and my 10 km radius.
- Since I had discarded HOTS and the Flight Path, I can more or less discard TraXX. I can even suspend my judgment on God and the afterlife. That means I am back to being a simple man just dealing with things within my scope. The only esoteric thought that I have is Al Araf 7:7 and Sailbad the Sinner. They will serve me here and now in my pursuit of my Personal Flight Path.
- I will not be entertaining grandiose thoughts that are beyond my reach. Thus I will do the right sizing when comes to visioneering and focus on things that I can achieve. This will ensure that I scope the realm of my thoughts to the present life and not beyond.
- Finally, I am free to think of other possibilities again. I am not going to carry the 20 years baggage of BS (Belief System) with me to the future. Today I am reinventing myself toward a new future. I am ready to live my life as an Agnostic Atheist. I am not afraid to be a Nothing.
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