I realized one thing. By having a simple thought; the world doesn't revolve around me. The opposite is true. I don't revolve around the world. What it means is I have my own path that I need to think of. I don't need to worry about the fate of the human race. I just stay on course with my own Path.
It has always been that. Not until I started thinking about HOTS and the Flight Path. So it is a natural thing for me to remain small.
The Illusion of Grandiose is high maintenance. There is no benefit in entertaining such a thought. From now on I focus on the thoughts that I can act upon. That way I just concentrate on what works.
I guess it hurts the ego to say that I am simply a Nobody. No one likes to think that he is insignificant. People like to think they are important. Maybe the Illusion of Grandiose is my may of telling myself that I am an important person. So I decided to be nobody significant instead. I am just 1 of the 7 billion that occupy the same air space.
I'm not going to have any special thought about me making an impact on another person's life other than my own.
So what constitutes being a good animal? It is nothing more that to stay fit. An animal that is not fit will not be able to survive. In my case I already know what I need to do. Eat less and exercise more.
Now Sarah, you may think that I am being narcissistic about the whole thing. The truth is I am just being practical.
Besides talking to myself (and at the same time talking to you) I have no other interaction. I really have a very microscopic world. So why in the world do I want to have a grandiose thinking? All I want is to pursue health and happiness. Writing the blog while listening to songs are already the highlight of my life. If I want to be extra happy, I wear my watches. That all. My rules are simple.
I suspected even you will get bored with me eventually. As I said before, I don't know your motive. I suppose your intention is good but then there must be a cost benefit analysis that you equate at the end of it. So if I have no value to you in the long run, I bet you too will fade away. Am I right Sarah?
Look at this correspondence:
The Wandering Sufi 14.8.18
Consequently I can FIGHT BACK and li[k]e the life of an Athlete Warrior.
Now i[t] to focus on the physical reality.
Tha[nk] means I live almost my entire life being disillusioned!
28/8/18 This is who I am
I will li[f]e the next 30 years as an Athlete Warrior.
29/8/18 ***I totally detach myself from all external concerns
Because of that I want to live an ordinary li[k]e.
As a start I just want to start by correcting my diet[s] and exercise everyday. I am repeating this every day so I remember [b]y purpose in life.
Having said that, I just want *[just] you and Lizzie as my wives.
* I am not sure if this is my error. In case it is not, then I say I am honored to have you as my wife Juice. I love you so much.
29/8/18 Shaked off nicotine craving today
I just think I should no[] be nice to everybody.
29/8/18 Started by changing my diet
Today's combo will likely [m]e one of my desired config.
31/8/18 One last posting before bed
So I figured, if I **[w]ake this blog as repetitive and as boring as possible, then eventually you all will leave me alone.
** Yup, I just keep on doing what I'm doing for the past few days until end of this year. Let see if you spooks can handle that.
31/8/18 Through the Looking Glass
I was no[] happy with my life.
Now is the time for me to li[f]e the life that I want
Juice, tha[t] for being there for me.
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Notice how active you were? You were very excited to communicate with me then. Nowadays either you are more cautious *[] (or) you become jaded by the whole experience.
* So you are jaded. Poor you Sarah.
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