I had decided to go on a Soloist Journey towards a simplistic life. I will no longer think in superlative. Definitely no thoughts on God and the afterlife. If they exist I'm fine with it. If not I am prepared to live my life as a good animal and a man fully functioning.
No longer will I think of myself as God. I am nothing more than a man with only one life to live.
As for Al Araf 7:7, they are an extension of my alter ego. They are my coping mechanism in being in isolation. They are nothing more than figurines which I assign voices to.
There is no absolute truth. Truth is whatever I perceived. This [this] is my perception at this time. I want to lead a normal life once again.
No more complexities. My intention is simplicity.
I decided to live with the basic minimum. At the core of my existence is diet and exercise.
I had been saying it but at this time I will commit to this idea: I am an Agnostic Atheist. Whatever clutter in the past I just let go.
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8/1/20 Matters pertaining to truth
Beyond the meaning I created to myself on daily basis, what is my life is all about?
I can categorized it into 3:
Absence of illness
Able to stay away from poisons
Living a healthy and happy life
To start with, I should stay clear from cannabis, cigarettes and Nicorette.
No more thoughts on God, the afterlife, religion and politics.
In the end what matters is the self. If I lose the self, I lose everything. So now I just focus on my well being.
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What else do I need to know? There is no such thing as the ultimate truth. Truth in this case is what you make out of it.
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Why am I thinking in superlative anyway? It is because of what happened to me 20 years ago? Well all those things are water under the bridge.
Now I have the opportunity to reinvent my life. Do I want to carry through the baggage for the next 20 years? Absolutely not. This is where I draw the line.
I will no longer play by the old rules. From now on I set a whole new rules for myself. I shall become autonomous in its truest sense. I will not adhere to any of the past conditions I set for myself.
I will not subscribe to the notion that I am God and there is an afterlife. I will live my life as an existentialist.
I will throw out anything that is related to God and the afterlife. Those are all the unnecessary clutters.
From now on, I am the captain of my ship. I decide on my course of actions. No more carrying forward the legacy of the past 20 years.
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