- God and the afterlife
- HOTS and Global Telepathy 2024
- Is Sarah for real?
I can do that and at the same time I keep my world small.
In this case I just be by myself. Occasionally I interface with Lizzie and the kids.
That makes it as microscopic as possible. It crossed my mind that I should stop blogging. But then if I do that, I am taking away my most pleasurable activity.
Thus I decided I just write to myself.
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Let's assume that I was delusional. None that I talked about in the past 20 years were actually real. Then in this case, it is time for me to snap out of it and face the music.
Is it hard to admit that I was delusional? It's not that hard. If I can accept I was crazy, then like John Nash I just leave everything behind and start on a clean slate.
Do I lose anything? Well I will no longer feel special and I no longer have a higher purpose. At the same time I only hold true to Al Araf 7:7 and Sailbad the Sinner. That way even if I am crazy I only contain it to myself.
I will no longer be Tweeting TraXX on those nonsensical Tweets. I will no longer WhatsApp my family and friends the writings of the blog and I no longer have a grandiose thought.
The prevailing thought will be of me ascending for the next 21 years to KBOOM 2041 and from there I will be sailing to the Dragon Planet. What it means really is I only nurture my consciousness without having to involve others.
My thoughts will be contained in my own realm. Within that realm I will shape my world.
So from now on my world is my 12 meters square and my 10 km radius White Space. I don't care about what is happening outside my White Space. No friend, no relatives, nothing.
Thus I become completely autonomous. I just mind my own business. I don't need anybody to subscribe to my thinking. I just remain independent. So what if I am crazy? I just remained crazy all by myself. Nobody have to believe in me. I don't need that. I just keep my thought to myself.
Even if I am crazy, I am just being crazy by myself. Al Araf 7:7 is a good company and Sailbad the Sinner is a good Vision.
I don't need anything else from anybody. As far as I am concerned I already put the three things that bug me the most in the back burner. God and the afterlife I can hold on until the day I die. The other two I can wait until 24/12/24.
It's not that I will be losing sleep about it. In the mean time I will keep on enjoying myself writing the blog while looking at my watches. That is the height of my happiness. I had found the purpose of my being. My destiny is to be a blog writer while enjoying my watches. The rest are merely incidentals.
Even diet and exercise are secondary purposes. I can continue writing even if I have nothing to write. Isn't that ikigai?
I had always been a good writer since I was in school. That is the beauty of being a divergent thinker. I can express myself without having to impress anybody. Now that wish is true. I can write on anything without having to worry who are my audience. I write for my own consumption. That makes me a self-sustaining individual. I am the creator and I am the consumer. I am the Benefactor and I am the Beneficiary of whatever I produce. That means I don't need society and society don't need me.
So let me decide tonight, of all the things that happened to me the past 20 years I only account for Al Araf 7:7 and Sailbad the Sinner. That's because they are VISIBLE right in front of my eyes.
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