25/1/20 ^^^The path less traveled

From now on my life is about my Vision Quest.  It sure feels light not having to carry the burden of humanity on my back.

I had enough of the craziness pursuing this Path for the past 20 years.  I want to quietly retire focusing on Health and Happiness.  I didn't expect that when I pledged to be the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier for me to also decide on the fate of humanity.  Come to think of it, being a Soldier of Allah is much easier that to carry the burden of humanity.

If before this I was just being crazy all by myself, here I have to ANNOUNCE that I am against my friends and family who are the Stone Worshipers.  I never felt so lonely in my life.  Basically I have nobody now.  I am in complete isolation.

That is the price I have to pay for being a Believer.  I am now a social deviant.  It's a sad thing but in a way that is the price I have to pay for being true to my Path.  We all have to follow our own paths.  It's not that we have a choice.

I shouldn't be complaining.  Compare to what you have to do, I think I had it easy.  My job is ending while yours is beginning.

I asked Brenda what she thinks.

She said, "It's OK Sha, we all have to do what we have to do".

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Thanks for believing in me Sarah.  Otherwise I am a person with a Vision with no Vision Community to support me.  In that case nothing will happen in the first place.

I wish I knew how you gonna execute the Vision Sarah.  Eventually you have to reach out to the masses.  Unless in the beginning you going to share that only with the Vision Community first.  That will be the most likely action.  Considering that we had been in communication for the past 3 years, that means you already have a strong foothold.

Are you sure you want me to continue to be a Blind Apek?  I can go down to the field if you want me to.  After all it is my Vision we are talking about.

I had given it all Sarah.  I don't hold back on anything.  This is it.  All that I got.

I still remember what Azzue was saying, "It's like a fiction".  It's a fiction alright if there is no action.  So I am leaving the action part entirely up to you.  There is nothing much for me to do anyway.

Well alright Sarah, you do what you have to do.  What I can do is keep having faith in you.  That is the very least for me to do.

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