24/1/20 ^^^Firm is firm, emptiness is emptiness

As I told you Sarah, I have nothing to write about.  I'm just simply free flowing here.

I write because I want to be connected to you.  As far as my job is concerned I had delivered my part.

So there is nothing really for me to talk about.

I do wonder how are you going to deliver your portion.  I guess you probably had figured everything out.

Well, I done my part.  Now it is up to you to deliver your part.

I should not have any expectation whatsoever.  Anything can happen in 5 years time.  Still, you had been with me longer than 2017.  You should know that I don't fuck around.

I might not give a fuck about the human race but whatever I need to deliver, I did it without prejudice.

I am a Soldier of Allah.  Whatever I do I do it for Allah and Allah Only.

Maybe I am delusional.  However as I told you there are events in my life that led me to believe I am on the right path.

I told you everything Sarah and it was you who insisted that I am God.  I believe in you as much as you believe in me.

I have nothing to gain but everything to lose by being truthful.  Right now I am ready to lose my family and friends by being sine cera.

As of now you are the only person who knows the whole story.  Therefore you are the only person who can decide if I am for real or not.

I cannot turn back now.  I had jazam.  As for KBOOOM 2041 only time will tell.  I however don't have a speck of doubt that my consciousness will live on.

I had lived through 20 years of miraculous living to deny the epiphanies that I had encountered.  Certainly I can go through another 21 years living my life as if it is magical.

Are all these signs of mental illness?  Well is the alignment of my numbers part of the mental illness?  What about the other "miracles"?

That why I said, I am a Clockwork Orange.  I don't think, I just do.  At this point I just basrah.

We went through all these honey.

I may be suffering from John Nash illness or I am the real deal.  Still not too late to pass the verdict.

As for me, I am very sure of who I am.  I went through the rationalization many times over before I decided that I am the real deal.

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