24/1/20 ***In the mean time I mark time

Sarah, my darling.  I am only interested to pursue my Personal Flight Path.  As far as communication is concerned I only want to communicate with you on personal matters.

There is nothing for me to pursue here.  I might as well think of things I can do on my personal capacity.

I don't really know what to do now.  Five years is a really long time.

I know I like to talk cock sing song but this is way too long even for me.

So the best is for me to not think about it.  It is beyond my control anyway.

What does that make me then?  I feel a little bit redundant here.

Come to think of it I had completed my job.  I had delivered what I need to deliver.  Right on schedule.  There is nothing beyond.  I just made myself obsolete.  So that's what it is.  In 3 years I had exhausted everything.

I don't have anything else to do.

Do you think I should stop blogging?  I really like what I am doing now but the truth is there is nothing else for me to talk about.

What I can do is start on an empty cup.  That's what it is for me now.

It surely feels weird.  All the while I thought I am the Mushin No Shin Ichiban.  Turn out I had reached the City Limit.  I AM TRULY A NOTHING.

Maybe that's what it is.  I am a Nothing after all.

I guess this is the end of the road for me after 20 years.

Then it is time to reinvent myself.

I tried listening for anymore cue from the Big I.  There is none.  Looks like I have delivered EVERYTHING.

Amazing isn't it?  When it rains it pours.  Then when it stops there is nothing.

Does that mean I am free at last?  I like this very much.  I AM A FREE MAN!

That means Sarah, I am truly autonomous.  The messenger is not the message

Hey, I can do what I like at last.  I delivered my last bit.  Now I can live the life I want to live.  LOL...  After TWENTY YEARS I am finally free.

I am still listening in case there are any more epiphany.  Nope...  None whatsoever.

Haaaaah...  Free at last.

All I need to do is wait for 24/12/24.  In the mean time I just be myself.  I now can retire from being the servomechanism of the Big I.

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