31/1/20 ***Life is like that

I had lived in my own fantasy.  Whether it happens or not I had lived it through.

That puts an end to a chapter of my life, crazy or otherwise.

I am not too concern with that.  What matters now is I had executed the thought.

First I dared to green light.  As usual, then comes the red light.  After that I decide whether it is viable for me to proceed.

As it is, I figured that the idea is not SMART.  So why waste time thinking about it?

I am better off thinking about things I can achieve on my own.  Things that I can control.  These things don't require for me to depend on anybody for execution.

If my objective is health and happiness, then I am on track.  I don't need excess.  I am doing fine as it is.  All I need I already got.

I have to be true to myself.  At the end of the day, the final arbiter is the man on the mirror.

So here is my verdict:

I don't need anything and anyone beyond my 12 meters square and my 10 km radius.

I am doing fine on my own.

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If I am a sensible person, I should be able to separate between what is real and what is imagined.  That is the only way to determine if I am in full control of my mental faculty.

I must have faith that I will get well eventually.  Maybe I should not believe in anything unless there is evidence.  Therefore I only believe what I can experience with my 5 senses.

If that is the case then I say I believe I can talk to Al Araf 7:7 because they are the extension of my consciousness and Sailbad the Sinner because it is the physical manifestation of my Vision.

Other than that everything is Management by Objective.

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