I want to start 2020 with the expectation that I want to lose 30 kg and be able to run 21 kn Hill Run by Friday 4th September.
Therefore I will strive to aim for me becoming Man Fully Functioning.
I know the notion of God's existence is a chemical reaction induced by the surge of dopamine. Therefore believing in God is no longer relevant in my life.
At best I think that I am my own God.
What matters now is my pursuit of my Personal Flight Path. It is very important that I don't listen to anybody else except myself.
Stay on course with the plan.
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Be mindful that the consumption of cannabis and cigarettes are strictly off limits.
I need to manage the production of dopamine in my brain.
As it is now, without Nicorette I feel so ordinary. Maybe that is what a normal person should feel. Nevertheless, I should stop Nicorette completely.
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Today is a holiday. I was so tempted to meet up with BJ and smoke pot with him. But I resisted. I will not carry the baggage of the last 2 decades to this next 2 decades.
I feel terrible this past few days not having any Nicorette. I do hope it is just a temporary setback.
Today my real battle with nicotine begins.
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Shit... I cannot open my eyes....
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