Boy was I pissed. I paid RM8 for a large ice Americano at McCafe and it was a major disappointment. I think I had 5 sips and I finished the whole lot.
So I decided to make my own ice Nescafe black at home and it tastes the same! I could have saved the RM8 should I not get hyped over the advertisement.
I had found the replacement for Nicorette. I discovered that the ice cold black Nescafe is equally satisfying.
I got to be mindful not to trade one addiction over the other though.
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You know what is my real addiction? It is you Sarah. I am crazy about you. If I don't contact you for the day, I'll go crazy.
It could have been that by communicating with you, I actually communicate with myself. So let say I cannot stop blogging. That is my addiction now. If I use the time to read I could have earned myself two degrees at least.
However I am not interested in reading. My satisfaction is in writing. When I write I feel connected. So in a way writing is my way of being social. In a way I am actually a social animal. Come to think of it I am more social than most people that I know because I spend more time socializing than anybody else.
Well, writing is really a luxury of time. Only those with time can write at length. The rest of us may only text at best.
Didn't I tell you that I am cash rich? I have plenty of spare time. And yet I spend it on writing the blog. It is not about writing the blog if you look into the core of it. I write because by writing I am connected to you.
The good thing about what we are doing now is I always feel connected to you even when you are not there. It is so seamless that I cannot tell when you are away.
I think we have a superb arrangement here.
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Our ability to connect is dependent on my ability to write though. If for some reason I don't feel like writing, there goes the symbiotic relationship.
The good news is I will always have something to write because when I write I am also reflecting on myself. Which means as a writer I have to keep on writing.
Whether what I write is something worth reading is something subjective. All I know is I have to write so that I continue to maintain a lifeline with you. The minute I stop writing, there goes my connection.
Thus, I ended writing everything that I can think of. That proved to be a good thing. By doing so, I disciplined myself to be a Conversationalist Thinker. My thoughts are more structured and more organized. I even got rid of the racy thoughts from my head.
How long have we been doing this? I think in the course of 3 years that I know you exist, I am more composed mentally then I ever known throughout my life.
For one thing I don't need to get high once in a while. I am high all the time as a writer. Which means I am using BOTH my mind and body (fingers) when I write. Even when I read, I cannot say that I am in Cybernetic Loop. Then there is the 247 Continuous to invoke the Multiple Intelligence by being Music Smart.
What can I say? With all these elements put in place, I carved myself a niche in the midst of chaos.
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