I rather walk alone than talk cock sing song while I do my morning walk.
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This morning walk is a Total Commitment Walk. That means I gave it all I got as a walker. I tried running for 5 minutes but I decided I enjoy walking more.
Today is a great day. I think I can complete an OMAD.
I woke up at 4:40 am this morning, completely fresh from the lucid dream.
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I feel like reading before lunch.
This is one of those blessed day. You know, those days that you feel blessed. I don't have that many of those days. This is one of it.
So what I did just now was I went through a quick glance of my life's balance sheet and see if I have a positive or negative balance. I must say that I did more good than bad.
Beside stealing I was never a mean person. Stealing was basically it. I hardly lie (except the white lies I told Lizzie when I want to go and smoke pot with BJ).
I must say for a good few years of my life I did good and I did no harm. So those good deeds grew and bore interest; those students I teach, the knowledge I shared with others, my ideas people plagiarize, my alms, donations and what not. They all bear fruits.
I had given until I had nothing to give. Well Sarah, that counts too. Turned out, giving is about sincerity rather than quantity. It's like sincerity is the performance index. Furthermore, the bigger the percentage that you give away, the bigger the dividends.
In that sense I am not short of good deeds. Sufficient to qualify me for the office. With the exception of harm I do to myself and based on mutual consent, I was pretty much a good guy. Not that I am blowing my own horn. However I do want to take stock of my deeds and sins since today is the Official God's Office Day. I do want to make sure I am the right person for the office.
I however like to note that my role in the office is merely as an arbiter and not as the enforcer. Nobody is going to enforce the Golden Rule except the person himself. Therefore I still maintain my role as the non intervening God and Al Araf 7:7 as my Sailbad the Sinner crew rather than the administrators of Sparta 4964.
With the exception of angels, the citizens of Sparta 4964 are autonomous.
Even the angels are meant to operate and administer. They are not the enforcement. Only when those people need to pay the Ferryman, then will enforcement comes to play. For example, Sazali can carry on not paying his debt to Lizzie until the time comes for him to pay the Ferryman. So is Larry with the RM97 million.
I personally will pay my RM70 k debt to IRD because I personally want to settle all my debts before I pass on. Besides, I enjoy saving for something. This might as well be it.
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How do I describe my situation right now to you Sarah? Let say I am on a very straight path and I KNOW for sure that if I follow this track, I'll reach my final destination in one whole piece, 100%.
It is the State of Knowing that I am on the right Path. That I am already in my groove that makes me feel like ejaculating in some lucky Gaysha's mouth. That sort of feeling, you know what I mean don't you?
It's like it doesn't matter what I say and do anymore because I am COMING HOME no matter what.
Now, the ejaculating in some lucky Gaysha's mouth is just a figure of speech. What I really meant to say is, I feel really good right now knowing my entire life will be OK from here on.
That's a big deal for me Sarah considering the turmoils I had to endure throughout my life.
According to the Chinese, a True Dragon lives a turbulent life but will enjoy great stability towards the end of his life. If I can live my life like a True Dragon, I will be very happy.
As far as uncertainty is concerned, the only thing I had not factored in is Lizzie's health. Otherwise, I had done my best to minimize risk in my life.
I don't mind going sooner. What I don't want is a prolonged illness.
#traxxfm Happy new year Rex. This year is my consolidation year. So I'm taking things easy with much of the External Affairs. Sufficient to say I know who I am, I know my purpose and I know where I am going. So I am enjoying the ride here.
#traxxfm Come to think of it, there is no mystery really. All the variables are known. Therefore like an airplane pilot, I just set my course and check the indicators on the rightness of my direction. Along the way I just enjoy the view.
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I know I said I wanted to read. However writing is more fun. So I think I just follow my gut feel.
#traxxfm You know Rex, I listen to you the most because you have so much insights. I wonder it those pointers are your personal compilations because if they are, you make one hell of a consultant. You may want to compile your work and produce a handbook
Baby, I think I'll have my lunch early today. I had skipped dinner last night and I had a bite at 10:00 am just now. I think I have grilled fish and some fresh herbal greeneries. Sort of simple Malay food at the Malay restaurant in Taman Tun Dr Ismail.
#traxxfm Here are some examples. The content is written in point forms and a little bit of elaboration. Very easy reading. About 250 pages thick
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