Now I am tempted to send that paragraph as a Tweet but I hold back.
Basically I have a social media itch for no reason. At least when I blog I reflect on my thoughts. With Twitter, it's purely dopamine hit.
So I need to stay away from social media as I concluded. It does more damage than good.
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#traxxfm You know honey, when I listen to Never Enough, the song straight away invoke memories of you. Now that memory is you as a giant purple carrot.
Basically I cannot compound my dopamine addiction. What are they?
- Nicorette
- Tweeting TraXX
- Nescafe C Kosong
- Internet Radio
- Pornhub
I am a dopamine addict.
#traxxfm Because of this smoking ban I had quit smoking for 1 year already. Now I am quitting the nicotine gum. Smoking is no longer in fashion unlike when I was a school boy 40 years ago.
I think I just play it by the ears. Subtraction can be hard at times.
I take it one step at a time.
I don't know where this is heading but whaddaheck. I just play along.
What do you think Sarah? Should I continue to be a troll and act as if I own the biggest ego in the block?
Cleaners are feared. I like that.
At the same time I had more or less concluded that I am playing in a very tiny sandbox and everybody want to take control of the center. What do I need to do then? I let go of power. That what I had been doing Sarah. I had been letting go of power from the very beginning.
Power is just an illusion. I don't need illusion in my life. I am a magician. I create illusions. So I don't need to live inside an illusion.
Only I can decide on that. I have the ability to decide whether I want to play or not.
Beyond the sandbox there are nothing much. I think life is pretty mundane for most people.
So do I want to keep on playing?
I don't know. It's a boring game but it's the only game in town.
I think I change my strategy this year.
I'll stop TraXX.
There is an end to everything. I might as well end this continuous *[] (loop) now.
* Sometime what we need is a little nudge.
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Social Media is more damaging for me than doing me good. I had let go of FB and WhatsApp Group. Now is to let go of Twitter. Then I am out of that world.
Just like what I did with Dreams of Mirrors. It's a choice. I wonder, beside the Fear of Missing Out (FOMO) what is really the benefit of Social Media?
None really.
I better take it that this year is the year I am free from nicotine and Social Media.
I can still be the Darwin Hawk Moth and still pollinate a specific kind of orchid. The only difference is it's another orchid and not the previous one. It's just switching preference like switching from Pepsi to Coke.
Like I said Sarah, I think too much. All I need to do is decide I am dumping Els because I don't think it means anything in the long run.
TraXX as a whole means nothing to me now. They are a lost cause. I rather listen to Capital FM UK.
Brb...
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