1/1/20 ^^^I can do it if I set my mind to it

I got to feel what it is like to win again.  Forget about the traditional benchmark used to measure a winner in life.

What is my life is worth to me anyway?

What do I want bad enough?  I want to be thin and fast.

How do I get that before Ramadan?

• Exercise AHAD
• Eat OMAD LCHF
• Drink Black Coffee when hungry
• Eat Butter, MCT Oil and Fish Oil

----------------

I need to fight depression from Nicorette withdrawal.

It is like smoking cessation.  I just have to endure for 1 month.

In the meantime I have to focus on health and happiness.  It cannot be harder than when I want to quit cigarettes.

All I need to do is to remain in isolation.

---------------

If I smoke pot, I will go crazy.  This is a further evidence that anything spiritual or Godly that I experienced was actually chemically induced.

There is no truth beyond mathematics.  If even mathematics is not true then there is no truth whatsoever.

If there is no truth, then nothing matters really.  All that I had been rambling about since 2016 were just perspectives and opinions.

So I'm not going to meet Ar Razi for lunch tomorrow.  I rather not listen to another opinion.

---------------

Beyond the meaning I created to myself on daily basis, what is my life is all about?

I can categorized it into 3:

• Absence of illness
• Able to stay away from poisons
• Living a healthy and happy life

To start with, I should stay clear from cannabis, cigarettes and Nicorette.

No more thoughts on God, the afterlife, religion and politics.

In the end what matters is the self.  If I lose the self, I lose everything.  So now I just focus on my well being.

-----------------

What else do I need to know?  There is no such thing as the ultimate truth.  Truth in this case is what you make out of it.

--------------