2/1/20 ^^^When the magic is gone

I an now as ordinary as I can be.  I am not God and I am not anybody special.

I am just a person aiming to be the best he can be by pursuing health and happiness.

I cannot even write well without nicotine to induce the production of dopamine.  That is how fucked up my system is right now.

----------------

Everybody falls down but getting up is up to you - Stallone

I am 56 this year.  Only this year I managed to say no to nicotine.  After 40 years I am now free to live my life as I deem fit.

I need these next 4 months to strengthen my commitment to quit cigarettes and dope.

Although when I quit Nicorette, I have the urge to smoke dope, I need to face my dark side and decide once and for all to NO LONGER expose my body to substance abuse.

-------------------

I was really all over the place when I was mentally influenced by substance.

I got to draw the line somewhere.

Gosh, life without nicotine is so bland.

You will notice based on the ordinariness of my postings.

So this next one month, I expect my thoughts to be as normal as possible.

------------------