Another sign that my dopamine is stabilizing is I am gaining back my loving feeling towards you.
Can you believe it? Depending on the level of dopamine in the brain, I can be totally immersed in the feeling or I am not in the mood whatsoever.
It makes me realize, although I am pretty much controlled by the fluctuation of the neurotransmitters, I am still who I am at the core.
If I am God at the core, with or without the neurotransmitter I am still God. That brings me to the next point; God is a combination of BOTH a Sound Mental Faculty and a Sound Physical Body. Mind without body is purely cerebral while body without the mind is purely carnal.
As proven with the withdrawal of Nicorette, the body has the impact on the mind through the establishment of the Cybernetic Loop.
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Let's talk about your favorite topic then. About me being God. I wanted to say about us being gods but the truth is I can only talk about my personal experience.
When my dopamine was low, I said whatever I wrote in the past 3 years were not true. How can I make such a blanket remark? I lived every single day of my life in the past 3 years as honestly as possible.
When I wrote all those things I wrote them with all sincerity knowing at that time I was being true to who I was.
Certainly I should take those thoughts seriously because when I wrote them, I believe in what I wrote wholeheartedly.
It is a question of perception. If I am looking for absolute truth, there is no such things as truth except perhaps in mathematics. In that context I should not be bothered to talk about anything at all because nothing is true.
However if I accept that between two extremes are varying degrees of opinions, then I should at least explore the idea that I am the Almighty.
Just like many opinions out there, this view is not based on truth by is based on preference in thinking.
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So I am God. Does it matter to others?
Definitely not.
Does it matter to me?
Certainly. By knowing who I am I then will uncover my purpose and where I am going.
Is it definite that I am God?
No. None whatsoever. It is an avenue that I am exploring.
Why do I want to follow this path?
I want to walk my own Path and I want to walk it alone.
Well, part of it is because I want to [] (be) who I really am. If I don't accept this notion, I will never find out [] (what's) behind those closed doors. I will never find my true calling.
Therefore when I accepted myself as God, I am being honest to myself. This is just between me and myself. That's why I close all my blogs. It's not meant for public viewing.
When I declared I am God, I am God to myself. I am not God to the rest of the matters. Even if I am, that is not relevant. Before I accept that I am God to the matters, I got to accept that I am God to myself first.
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Now that I am God to myself, what did I learn?
This is a very interesting discovery and is very recent. As God I don't have to give a damn about anything and anybody.
I just BE. To be I just become. What do I become then? None other than a Man Fully Functioning. How do I do that? By having sound mind and sound body.
As for the rest of the matters, I have my machinery to manage them.
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If I look at my journey so far, my Path had been very straight. Everything happened for the right reason. Even what I have in the bank is just enough for me to settle my debt and live a life of moderation.
Everything about my life up to now had already been planned in such a way that I arrive at the various checkpoints right on time.
Having said that I am very certain that Satan will serve Eternal Damnation and the Stone Worshipers will all take the "Scenic Route."
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