12/3/20 ***If life is a game

I wanted to believe in many things. Partly because I have a believing mind.  Partly because the signs are towards my favor.

Is it possible that I am on the right Path?  That is what I like to believe.  So one part of me is saying my future is glorious and I will be doing alright.

Then the sensible me started to speak out.  This is the me that is logical and sensible.  The one that is saying you are nothing more than a gnat.

Which one do I believe Sarah?  Do I accept my epiphanies or do I succumb to mediocrity?  I don't really know.  Minus the mania, I feel very ordinary indeed.

I don't have anything to fall back to.  I am just an ordinary guy living an ordinary life.  How is it that all of a sudden everything can become extraordinary?

I believe in my lucky star.  So far life had been good to me.  But beyond what I had decided for myself, there is no external intervention that takes me to a different trajectory.

What does that mean really?  That I should ignore all the epiphanies and *li[f]e (live) life as a common folk?

* Very well then.  I'll forgo all grandiose thoughts and live a modest life.

There [] (is) only one way to find out.  That is to wait for 24/12/24.  That is the moment of truth.  Then on 25/12/24  I will end all speculations and impose mubahala.

By then I will either win all or lose all.  Let's see if the chicken game is for real.  I think I already know the answer.  It's not whether [] (it) is real but rather the impact of the mubahala on the human race.

In this case I will stay on course with my Personal Flight Path.

The issue here is whether I strike out 1 billion or I strike out 7 billion.  Maybe Sailbad the Sinner is only meant for me, my Tetrahedron, my kids and Crew 36.  I don't really know.

If I follow pattern then I say it is only meant for us Sarah.  Even as we speak, the White Space is just my 10 km radius.  With Covid 19, there goes my plan to bring White Space to the various part of the world in 2020.

That is a very clear sign already.  The countdown had begun.

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So I concluded that the epiphanies are only meant for me.  I hold the winning ticket here.  No point trying to convince others to see what I saw.  It makes no difference.  I just mind my own business.

Of course there are options for people to consider.  However humans are creatures of habits.  We believe what we choose to believe.

Do people believe me Sarah or do they think I just cry wolf?

Whether they believe or don't believe don't really matter.  What counts is whether I believe in the epiphanies.

They are meant for me.

Well, I'm ready to pull the trigger.

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