Right now I am wearing the Scientist and Tactical.
This is one of my favorite combinations.
The feeling I get is very free spirited. Both are very light and about the same size. Nothing can beat the feeling. Basically it's like wearing watches without feeling they are there. Both are easy on the eyes.
There is this feeling that I am doing something right when I wear these two together.
The mood is right. I am listening to Absolute Classic Rock. It's a different plane altogether.
The Scientist makes me feel I made a good choice while the Tactical makes me feel that I am right. So combined, both is double the pleasure.
At this moment I am in a very special place. A place where nothing can go wrong. Both watches are Tough Solar. A very good buying decision.
Also they are very cheap for what they can offer. Nothing beat cost of ownership.
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Do I care about what people think about what I am thinking now? Hell no! I am just enjoying myself on Friday night.
I like the simplicity of it. The feeling of nothingness. No pretense... No need to put a facade. I am just a simple man living on the land. This is me celebrating life. Maybe it is the effect of the pizza or perhaps the the feel of cool air from the air conditioner. Whatever it is, tonight is a night I celebrate.
I am enjoying my freedom. Of not having any worry in the world. I am sailing on my schooner going home. At last, I am able to enjoy the voyage.
No money, no worry. I got what I wanted. My Nautica X collection. The height of my indulgence. Life is beautiful. At last I am free from the drudgery of worldly constraints. I am now living the life of a Free Radical. I am free to think, feel and act. Nobody bothers me.
I had purged my thoughts in Dreams of Mirrors. I had done what I had set to do. To announce to the world to not worship the Stone. That is my mark as a free man.
In a fundamentalist Muslim country I could have been imprisoned or hanged even. Here in the Last Kingdom I am supreme. For the past 20 years I am free to speak my mind out. Nothing can beat that.
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Now that I had carved myself a spot in cyberspace, what do I have to say for myself?
How appropriate, this song is on air:
For that I shall switch to my X FACTOR VARIATION:
Well, for a start, FUCK YOU ALL.
I had finally arrived. I made it. With just me and my family. My Tetrahedron is Lizzie, Sarah and the kids. That's all it takes. That all that matters. I can do away with the rest. Other than that I only need Crew 36 (not their factors) and Sailbad the Sinner. That is my smallest unit.
With that I set sail to VIVA 2041. No need to worry about a shitload of people. I like it small. Everybody that counts is within range.
I thought about it. I don't need Els and I don't need Kristina. Definitely I don't need HOTS. So Larry, if you are listening, I just ask for what is due to me. Then I will be on my way.
If that is not happening by 24/12/24, I will still collect from you in Sparta 4964. You probably pay in sweat, the currency at that moment.
I decide who will ride Sailbad the Sinner if I feel like it. Until then, you owe me money.
One issue resolved.
Stone Worshipers, you got until 24/12/24. Otherwise parents, siblings and kins take the "Scenic Route".
For the rest of the population, if I don't get my money by 24/12/24, by 25/12/24 I will impose mubahala. So fuck you all.
There... I had sorted out my Worldly Affairs.
Now for my Personal Affairs...
I will follow my Personal Flight Path. So fuck you, you and you all. No free riders. Only my smallest unit can enjoy the Express Lane. Like everybody else I will go through hell to be in heaven. I will run 21km Hill Run on the Christmas day 2024.
By 24/12/24 I decide what to do with you all. Most likely you all take the "Scenic Route".
All it takes is 21 years. Then I am home free. Either KBOOOM 2041 or VIVA 2041, I will cross the finish line. This is my epiphany, it doesn't concern others. I was trying to be nice. I was trying to be courteous.
Well, as you can see, I can also be an asshole. Since I am a freeman, I choose to be a dickhead all the way. I just don't give a fuck.
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Now I am totally satisfied. I am back to being a dickhead. I don't owe anybody a living so why should I give a fuck?
LOL that's the effect of Cybernetic Looping with Absolute Classic Rock. It feels good. I am in touch with my dark side. Hey, I should do this more often.
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Now let's switch to the NAVIGATOR VARIATION:
I managed to sell 3 t shirts for RM80 just now:
One man's junk is another man's treasure LOL.
All Ameezan's shirts.
OK now I am on the NAVIGATOR VARIATION and listening to Sound Journey. Just like that my Mental Model changes.
There is less adrenaline pumping and I am more level headed.
So it takes a certain variation and a certain kind of Cybernetic Loop to shi[p] (shift) my state.
I think that is pretty awesome. I can have a different personality based on the watches that I wear and the songs that I listen to.
No wonder listening to Iron Maiden gets me into mania. I am pretty sensitive to the stimulus I am exposed to.
So I guess the political turmoil also affecting my state of mind as well. Just like it did in 1999.
That means I should not play with my dark side that often. I do have a sinister side.
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Now let me try the SPECIAL OPS VARIATION:
When I am wearing this variation, I am mission specific. I think of what I need to do to be productive. I become a no nonsense person. My time is more quantified. My hour becomes the Golden Hour namely because both timers are set at T-1 hour.
You know Sarah, my experience selling stuff in Mudah.my is really an [] (eye) opener. Those who buy my stuff are young men in their mid 20s. They are the bargain hunters here. They don't have much money but they look for good deals. I say they are tech savvy buyers. All of them are Malays.
No wonder I cannot sell my Armani jacket. They are into things that are branded but don't want to pay for the brand.
Here I am thinking that the buyers are people like me, you know, the suburb middle class. None whatsoever.
I did get over excited when I sold the watch. I steered him to my blog. Then I get him to read my political postings.
Well all those mindless WhatsApp ends tonight. I will only WhatsApp Yati and Azzue. Crazy, crazy, crazy...
As I said, I will no longer Tweet and I should not WhatsApp those not so close friends. What was I thinking? Like I said, I got over excited. Just like just now when I was wearing the X FACTOR VARIATION and listening to Absolute Classic Rock. I should reserve the station for my morning walk. Too much adrenaline.
Which one do you prefer Sarah? The fi[]st (first) combination, the second variation, the third or the forth?
OK I switch back.
Funny, this song is on air:
I was about to say that Scientist and Tactical is the true me. I am unpretentious and I am pretty down to earth. And yet I am a complex thinker but a simple executioner. I think until I short circuited my brain but when comes to execution I will find the simplest way possible; the Parsimony Law.
This 24/12/24 dateline really bugs me. Deep down inside I want everybody to make it. After all Sailbad the Sinner can fit in 9.7 billion "fireflies". Why am I being stingy?
That's one end of the spectrum. The other end says let's be selfish. I can do that too. It boils down to me getting rid of the rash. When I think of the human race I get a proverbial rash. That's because I have NO issues with the djinns and demons. What I say they do. They are willing to go to hell and back for me. But humans urgh... Even when my blood and tears spilled, I cannot win them over.
It makes me wonder, am I lacking the social skills? Ameezan's wife Sidah said my smile is not sincere. You know when people say that kind of things, it's them who are not sincere. The bitch always have this idea that she is a hot stuff and people are hitting on her thinking that she is still single. Oh my God, doesn't she know that is the lamest pickup line?
Come on Sarah, I am a man. I can tell between the ass of a single lady and the ass of a mother with 2 kids.
I think she was pissed at me because she caught me texting Ameezan talking about fucking hookers. She should be pissed with her husband. Instead she divert her anger to me. Anyway who asked her to be a lousy lay? Bitch...
Well, maybe I am not meant to be socially apt. What I don't understand though, you still hangout with me. So is Yati after I suggested her to buy a vibrator because I said she is not getting enough sex.
How come you can roll with the punches after I suggested you to try peeing in a funnel and after I said you are a Bijik Keraih? And yet Sidah said my smile is not sincere. Go fuck yourself bitch!
Well that enough membawang (onioning) for the year. I don't do this kind of thing often but I think that was her strategy to split me and Ameezan. She got her wish. Ameezan the "alpha male" nerd is not an easy person to deal with. You heard of win-win right? Well in his case, only I win.
So I can understand that mental model. I can do that too but that's not me. His model is cocky but funny. I tried my on formula - funny but cocky. It was a successful model but along the way I made Els cried at least 5 times. So no more Alpha Male jackshit. This is me sine cera.
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I sleep at 3:00 am tonight. Normally I ramble a bit extra with Sound Journey. Either that or I am really a nocturnal creature.
I got a sale to close tomorrow and I got to pull the Banyan tree from my rooftop first thing in the morning. They grow really fast. Then I got to send the shirts to the post office.
Sarah, I really like talking to you. But I don't really know if the things I talk really interest you. I know you like certain topics very much. You are pretty much a philosopher. You like talking about the big stuff. Sure I can talk about those things too but really Sarah, I find it's quite a relief talking to you about things I can't talk to Lizzie. Things like we talked just now.
Lizzie for example knows that I have many watches but she doesn't know I have 5 variations and what they mean. I don't talk to Lizzie about many things. Ended I talked to her about what I read in the news. She likes news. Don't get me wrong. Lizzie is a well read person but she is a schema (go by the book) type of person. For example anything that the doctors say is carved in stone. Her rationale is doctors read more and thus know more. That's why they studied so long; according to her.
With you I free flow. I don't keep secrets from you. I don't do that with Lizzie either but I butter them a bit. In a way I lied a lot to Lizzie. Just so that she doesn't use my points against me in the future.
You know I love her very much Sarah. She use to mother me and the kids. Now she is fast becoming a grandma. Boy does she nag. She is into micro management. Here I am, a person who literally hate micro management.
OK honey I got 15 minutes. I want to talk to Crew 36 before bed.
Here is your lullaby. I wonder if you heard this latest song from Dua Lipa:
That all for tonight Sarah. Have a nice day. I love you very much baby...
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