Here we are, back to the same place and knowing it for the first time.
I am getting tired of the MCO, I longed to get my routine in order again,
So definitely I sleep early tonight.
If Els doesn't reply my email, then I think about time I let her go.
I don't see any reason why I should continue with this relationship. It is damaging. I might as well do something worthwhile. At least until the MCO is over.
Actually I can still play with this pussycat. I don't know Sarah, should I?
Certainly there is a benefit that I get out of it but is it worth it?
I smell fear.
I don't like people fearing me Sarah. Do I look like an ogre to you?
I tell you what. I break the pattern. On Thursday she will be on air again. This time I SNAP VANISH. I must do it. That's the only way.
I have to decide what is good for myself.
Anyway April is coming. By then I start 2020 Blog Vol 2.
Better still I just act as nothing happens.
Simply don't give a fuck.
What makes me happy? Tweeting her. Why punish myself.
I am not pressured for anything.
Just go with the motion.
Brb... Making coffee.
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Frankly, I had enough of tweeting Sarah. As I said, it's a nothing for nuthin' game. At least the blog is a conversation. Tweeting is nothing more than just a dopamine hit-
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