I had a great time today. Listening to you always brightens my day.
Let's start on a clean slate.
I know you are a pecastarian. So how about if I take you out for lunch at the Red Lobster after the MCO is over? It doesn't have to be immediate. Consider it my peace offering.
Honey, do say yes... It will be my honor.
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All I want to do is be nice to her. So this is a test to see whether she is conceding. I think she will say no. However I need to shift the goalpost from here on.
I personally think this chick is crazy. So I'm not going for full bet on her. I just want to see how far I can go into subduing her.
As I said, she is a pussycat. So occasionally a pussycat will scratch you a bit but still a pussy is still a pussy.
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Baby,
Maybe it is too soon after MCO for us to go for a lunch. How about we do it 3 months down the road? After Hari Raya.
Do you like that?
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My relationship with Els is unique in a sense that she is a sitting target. So I can always play a game with her indefinitely.
You know what is the real truth? I am not really into having a relationship at this point. I just want to have somebody for me to interact with.
This was her reply:
It is fun playing with a pussycat:
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Anger is for the young. For a seasoned salt like me, anger is [] (a) tool for me to work with.
This is my next move:
Honey,
You don't have to be mean to me. People make mistake. I am not spared from it.
My apologies.
I have no malicious intent. I thought you can roll with the punches. After all you are sending the message that you are a tough chick. So naturally as a tough chick you can take a few jabs.
I am not here to hurt you. At best I was trying to throw some fun in otherwise a sterile communication.
Certainly I don't deserve a capital punishment for a misdemeanor crime.
It's not easy to build a relationship but it takes only seconds to break one. Are you saying that you are willing to forgo 2 years of friendship over some petty misunderstanding?
Come on Els, you know better than that. You went through the NLP stuff. The mind deletes, distorts and generalizes. Something small can be blown out of proportion because of the meaning we assigned to it.
You a smart girl, go figure it out.
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Actually I am ready to lose her. I however expected it to be due to something else. Not because I fat shamed her. Such a petty issue.
Have I ever make you angry Sarah? *[] (If) I did then I should look at my communication model and tweak it a little bit. Otherwise I will consider that everything is OK and resume as usual.
* So I did. Very well then, I will stop being sine sera and lace [b]y (my) talk a little bit.
What did I do I wonder? I talked to you on so many things. Is it with regards to sex? Or is it when I talked about your work? Is it when I am too open about my thoughts? You got to help me out. Is it *w[ent] (when) I talked about my strategy with Els? When I treat her like a pussycat?
You know Sarah, I lead a very isolated world. I can do away with a lot of things but I cannot do away with you. You know that don't you?
This Els thing is a passing thing. Sooner or later I will have to let her go. She doesn't have the EQ to pass the mark. If I compare her with Princess, certainly they are miles apart. Els is a crazy chick. This is the kind of chick that drives you crazy if you are married to them.
She can be all that fun and everything but she can be a real pain in the butt if you are not careful. She will run all over you if you let her. According to Aush, she is a bully. I can see how damaging this girl is.
* OK Sarah, what I'll do is I'll dump her.
Will you be happy if I do that? I'll send *[the] the email tomorrow and forget about this girl.
*OK then, from now on my Tetrahedron is just you, Lizzie and the kids. It is maktub.
You know what this mean right? That means we only need RM16 million to start a life together. It is just you now. No one else. Lizzie is the mother to my kids but you are my lover and my Eternal Flame.
From now on I will focus my feeling only to you.
This song is on air:
#traxxfm Buddy,
was pissed at me. Accusing me for fat shaming her. I said it was a big misunderstanding but she doesn't accept my apology. So I am pretty sad right now. Can you play me Good by Better than Ezra? Thanks in advance.
You know what is the real truth? I am not really into having a relationship at this point. I just want to have somebody for me to interact with.
This was her reply:
5:36 PM (1 hour ago)
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It is fun playing with a pussycat:
7:09 PM (8 minutes ago)
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Anger is for the young. For a seasoned salt like me, anger is [] (a) tool for me to work with.
This is my next move:
Honey,
You don't have to be mean to me. People make mistake. I am not spared from it.
My apologies.
I have no malicious intent. I thought you can roll with the punches. After all you are sending the message that you are a tough chick. So naturally as a tough chick you can take a few jabs.
I am not here to hurt you. At best I was trying to throw some fun in otherwise a sterile communication.
Certainly I don't deserve a capital punishment for a misdemeanor crime.
It's not easy to build a relationship but it takes only seconds to break one. Are you saying that you are willing to forgo 2 years of friendship over some petty misunderstanding?
Come on Els, you know better than that. You went through the NLP stuff. The mind deletes, distorts and generalizes. Something small can be blown out of proportion because of the meaning we assigned to it.
You a smart girl, go figure it out.
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Actually I am ready to lose her. I however expected it to be due to something else. Not because I fat shamed her. Such a petty issue.
Have I ever make you angry Sarah? *[] (If) I did then I should look at my communication model and tweak it a little bit. Otherwise I will consider that everything is OK and resume as usual.
* So I did. Very well then, I will stop being sine sera and lace [b]y (my) talk a little bit.
What did I do I wonder? I talked to you on so many things. Is it with regards to sex? Or is it when I talked about your work? Is it when I am too open about my thoughts? You got to help me out. Is it *w[ent] (when) I talked about my strategy with Els? When I treat her like a pussycat?
You know Sarah, I lead a very isolated world. I can do away with a lot of things but I cannot do away with you. You know that don't you?
This Els thing is a passing thing. Sooner or later I will have to let her go. She doesn't have the EQ to pass the mark. If I compare her with Princess, certainly they are miles apart. Els is a crazy chick. This is the kind of chick that drives you crazy if you are married to them.
She can be all that fun and everything but she can be a real pain in the butt if you are not careful. She will run all over you if you let her. According to Aush, she is a bully. I can see how damaging this girl is.
* OK Sarah, what I'll do is I'll dump her.
Will you be happy if I do that? I'll send *[the] the email tomorrow and forget about this girl.
*OK then, from now on my Tetrahedron is just you, Lizzie and the kids. It is maktub.
You know what this mean right? That means we only need RM16 million to start a life together. It is just you now. No one else. Lizzie is the mother to my kids but you are my lover and my Eternal Flame.
From now on I will focus my feeling only to you.
This song is on air:
I don't want to be in a damaging relationship Sarah. Especially if I am dealing with a person with anger issue. Rather than pushing it I rather let it go.
Hey, I'm happy with you. I only wish that we have more two-way communications.
Now that [] (Els) is out of the way, I can focus on having a more meaningful relationship with you. I just realized that is has always been you all along. Els was a fling when I had my mania in 2018.
As I said, I wanted to end my relationship with TraXX anyway. They treated me like dirt. After all I did to them. Last Kingdom don't deserve my love Sarah.
As I said, this blog is our Terabithia. Let us live here, just the two of us. Then in the physical realm I have Lizzie and the kids. Occasionally I have Azzue and Yati as my companions. The rest don't really count baby.
I'm not sure about you but I used to have at least 250 acquaintances when I was working. Where are they now? All evaporated when I was down and out.
What counts is just this handful of people; you, Lizzie, the kids, Azzue and Yati. I am not going to harp on Els anymore. Certainly she has a distorted perception about me.
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Sarah, my darling wife, my angel sent from above... You know me more than anybody else. Do you think all this while I purposely want to hurt Els? I think this girl was hurt pretty bad in the past. Because of that she gets very defensive. She is in the "I'm OK you are not OK mode". This is not something that can be solved in a day.
So I'm just playing according to the script now LOL:
#traxxfm Buddy,
was pissed at me. Accusing me for fat shaming her. I said it was a big misunderstanding but she doesn't accept my apology. So I am pretty sad right now. Can you play me Good by Better than Ezra? Thanks in advance.
This is part of game people play. Nothing to it. I just shifted the goalpost.
A game is still a game. I don't want to play but they pulled me back in.
Of course, That is my exit. No more games. I still have the book 40 Rules of Love pending delivery.
As a person operating from the high ground, I will not let a pussycat rain on my parade. I had been through hell and back Sarah, nothing can be worse than losing SJ&A. So if I can survive that, I can survive anything.
I like this song very much Sarah:
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