To be honest, I have no issue whatsoever. So rather than saying [] (I'm) experiencing an even keel, I tried to create a turbulence.
Heck, I am sailing smoothly right now. I had good food, good sleep and good entertainment. Too good as a matter of fact that I am feeling a little sedated.
I watched a comedy just now Out of My League. My mood is sanguine right now.
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I am thinking about Els at this moment. That is one funny girl. I like her very much Sarah. I think she don't mind me being quirky too. However I need to contain my excitement over her.
I don't think I am much of a value to her anyway. On the other hand, if she is the type that doesn't mind having a weirdo as a companion, our relationship can be pretty fulfilling.
So Sarah, you like Els yeah? What if I let her go? Will it be for the better? I was thinking of doing away with the tweeting. Just like I did away with FB and the blog.
I talked about being in isolation. But the truth is I still need the company of people. For example I'll go crazy if I don't write to you.
Tweeting Els is like playing with my pussycat. Maybe I switch to just listening to her. Not as fun. That is playing defense. I like to provoke her. She is such a stimulus-response person.
It's [] (not) so much that I need for her to respond back to me as much as I need to express myself to her. She is still reacting to my tweets via verbal means. How do you interpret that Sarah? I take it [i]s (as) she likes getting the attention from me but she is playing her own little game.
With chicks, there is always games to play. The guys are pretty straight forward. There is no game whatsoever. But with chicks there is always this thing about establishing the pecking order.
Anyway, with Els the game is not complicated. All I know is she is scared of being dumped. That is the advantage for me. All I need to do is play SNAP VANISH. It works all the time.
Maybe I should treat Els as a hobby. I don't really need to be with her all the time. I think if I am to be under the same roof with her, she can be a pain in the butt.
#traxxfm I was talking to Sarah about you just now. I said you are pigeon tame. There is a Malay saying: Pigeon tame eats from the palm; Call it comes catch it will flee. So you feed pigeons but you set them free. Goodnight/morning... Luv ya baby
OK let's analyze this. Does it matter if [] (she) doesn't respond? Not really. Already I am doing myself a favor; I got myself thinking of what to write. By thinking about her I am stimulating my brain to think of something positive.
You agree Sarah? It is different between you and me. In our case, I am having a two-way communication. With Els, its about sending a certain vibe which makes me feel good about myself. It is a form of mental jousting. Much like the military attack of the Mongolian Hordes.
I don't know how describe it Sarah. Everytime I tweet her, I feel that I exist. Just like the Zulu greeting, "I see you" and with that the response is "I am here". As if by tweeting her, I am defining my existence.
I better let you go honey. I need to be in bed before Lizzie wakes up.
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