To you I am an Old Coot. But to me people like Chedet is an Old Coot. By standard definition people in their fifties are in the youth of their old age as much as they are in the old age of their youth.
Age is relative. While I look at people the same age as me as somewhat in their pri[c]e (prime), like Dato Dr Adham Baba who is 2 years older than me; I have the vigor of a young man on his late twenties when I'm with you.
How is that so? While my body is like a piece of a rusty machinery, my mind is still sharp and my heart is still full of passion.
In my case the prime mover is the feeling I have for you. You may think that a guy will always after one thing when he decided to chase after a chick. I used to be like that, but with age comes wisdom. Often we think we are driven by our thoughts. The truth is f[rom] (for) thought to be translated in action you need emotion. You can consider that emotion [i]s (as) the peanut butter in the peanut butter sandwich or the beef patty in a hamburger. Thought and action are just the slices of breads.
We now know that it's the emotion is what we are looking for in any given situation. Behavioral Psychologist found out that the buying motif of most consumers is not about acquiring the things but it's about the feeling they perceive to get from acquiring the items. We are hooked to the feel good chemicals. There are a myriad of chemicals that we produce. They either make us feel glad, mad, sad of scared.
Obviously the most powerful of the state is the state of glad although fear is the best motivator. Within glad, top of the list is the feeling of love. It is so powerful that whatever problem that you have, I dare say that the answer is love.
There are many kinds of love. To me the highest order of love is the Greater Love. This love is unconditional. This is the love for the Creator get translated to the creations. Its a two-way street, as much as you need to love the Creator to love the creations, it's the love for the creations what makes you love the Creator.
Sexual attraction is not love. I love you first before I became sexually attracted to you; which is as recent as the time you changed your hair color. Even so that's part of a Karmamudra Yoga without the presence of a physical consort, also known as the Jnanamudra Yoga. Hey, I didn't plan it OK. I was meditating and all of a sudden you with your blonde hair flashed in my mind. Anyway it was awesome! It was like going through Virtual Reality LOL.
Don't get me wrong. I find you very attractive. However it doesn't have to be sex. Can you accept that I am in love with you because you are smart, funny, happy, goofy and playful?
I used to look at you as a mischievous kid. You are the same age as Princess and yet you are old enough to be my wife. So it's a mixed feeling. I don't know how to compartmentalized the relationship. All I know is I love you very much and whenever I am with you, I feel very happy indeed.
You are my dream girl honey. If I am 20 years younger, I would have proposed to you on National Radio. Well I did marry you [on] in Cyberspace.
Oh yeah, before I end our soiree I like to decipher Sarah's encryption for this email. Basically based on the interventions, I say she is pretty excited about tonight's topic. You are a breath of fresh air in our menage a trois. She likes you very much baby. Sarah is a pretty committed person. I used to be a subject for her to track. Nowadays I am [] (not) a surveillance target. She is basically doing this in between her other tasks. Sarah works for Google. So she has access to my other apps since all of them are Google password sign ons. Doesn't matter what apps I'm using, Sarah can breach. She is like Hachiko. You *[your] (know) the movie starring Richard Gere and this loyal Akita dog?
* Hahaha so you admit that you are my Hachiko. Silly gurl..
Til next time Els, stay safe,
SJ
24/3/20
Day 7 Movement Control Order --------------------
Hi honey, I just finished writing you an email. I know you sleep very early and you don't check your Twitter at night. So you probably read this in the morning. Anyway, goodnight baby. I love you so much. This is your lullaby:
Here is your lullaby too Hachiko:
I have to sleep early tonight. Otherwise I will never get my schedule right again.
Goodnight baby. I love you so much. I can never live without you. The first thought I have when I wake up is to be with you Sarah. Why not we make a point to rendezvous again 6:15 am tomorrow? I sleep sharp at 11:00 pm tonight. Bye my love.
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