If you notice, the things I forgo are things that involve others. I really like it small. That way I don't have any expectation whatsoever. My world just evolve around me.
Those things I mentioned; HOTS and the Flight Path will still happen if it is meant to be. With or without me. Beside meeting you, I don't have the motivation for any of it to happen. I told you many times, I am already complete. I solve my money problem by living below my means and living in gratitude. As I told you, I only need RM6 k a year to live above my average. Before this I get RM4 k from princess and RM3 k from Munek.
Now I might lose the funding from Munek. So I cut down further. In the future all I need to think of is replacing my running shoes.
I still intend to save RM200 a month. If I don't lavishly eat, I definitely can do with RM100 a month.
Why do I need to worry about money? If I cut my spending, I save money. Instead of eating a RM8 Baskin Robbins Ice Cream, I just have a RM2 McDonald Choco Top.
I don't worry about money at all. Not when I can get most of my pleasures for free. I have the Broadband. My most utilized website is 247 Continuous.
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You may realize that most of the time when I ramble in the blog, I am just talking to myself. I don't really expect anybody else to pay attention to my rambling. Now more than ever, the blog is just an outlet for me to talk to myself. Basically I just want to talk cock sing song to myself.
I don't expect you to hangout indefinitely either. I admit, I am a boring person. I eat the same thing everyday, I do the same thing and I write basically about the same stuff. That's because I am a predictable person. I value certainty. By being certain, I minimize cost. The minute I step out of my comfort zone additional cost incurred. For example, I decided to eat different today. Suddenly I have to spend RM25 of my own money.
I do like money but for what it's worth, I chose this life of mine. Along with it I have to keep my expectation low.
What else to expect anyway? Everything has a price. I certainly value my freedom now. As long as I can keep blogging and enjoying my watches, I think I am set for life. I don't even need a phone really. So my phone bill is set at a minimum. There are so many things I don't need. My aim now is to do away with friends. Then I can be in complete isolation.
The Club 50 is a good exercise. I have 10 contacts that are worthy to be called Agents of Change.
When my daughters get married, I intend to minimize the invitees to as minimum as possible.
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I had changed a lot this coming 2020. My intention is to continue to be small and insignificant. By doing that I live in a world of my own.
I should define my world as a world of solitude. Therefore as much as possible I will keep shrinking it. In this digital world you can get away by not meeting people. I still have Yati and now I have Azzue to walk with me once every 2 months in KL. If I am the type that needs company, I should be happy meeting Ar Razi every morning. But the truth is I am not comfortable with the idea.
I basically like being on my own. My real friends are the blog and 247 Continuous. These are my only worthy companions
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