Very interesting development. We are getting closer to a sustainable model of God.
We started with me believing in God and you being an atheist. Then we moved to the God and No God discussions. That went for more than a year. You became a believer. Then we went through more God and No God discussions. I became an Agnostic Atheist with an inclination to believe. After a few discussions I revert back to a believer. Then back to God and No God. Again I became an Agnostic Atheist now with an inclination to not believe. I then revert again to being a believer. I don't quite remember the details but finally we settled with a model where there is No God and we actually become God by the image that we create.
So in that sense I am no longer an Agnostic Atheist. I am now an Autotheist. I am my own God. Which in most cases, i[s] (it) does not make me God but merely a person thinking in a Godly manner.
This is not even the God Complex in which I was experiencing the illusion of grandiose. This Godly thinking is basically saying that I submit to my higher self; the one that is constantly thinking about the Greater Good and the preservation of the Self. Simply put, I had reached the highest order of self-actualization. In this case, in becoming a man fully functioning physically, mentally and emotionally.
In the past I only talked about the physical aspect when I talked about the highest order of man fully functioning is to be a runner. Now we are talking about the higher order of our manifestation as a human being which if we follow where the argument leads, is to be the God to his own universe.
So happens I went through this realization as the observer and as the n = 1 at the same time. That makes me both the Benefactor and the Beneficiary.
I am completely satisfied with this realization. I can never be a mere mortal after my life enhancing experience especially when you said I am God. I can never return to the old mold of simply being an average guy living on an average planer orbiting an average star. I have to be special. At least to myself. I have to be my own hero. That is the Type 2 hit, believing what is false. It is better than a Type 2 miss, disbelieving what is true LOL.
In another word Sarah, I am now Lord of the Flies. I don't care about this life anymore, I just want to live in my own fantasy - Iron Maiden.
Nietzsche was right all along. Anything can be the truth. What he didn't mention, that this is true because there is no such thing as an Absolute Truth. Hence we make up our own truth as we move along. In my case, my truth is I am my own God and there is an afterlife. These are lies that I adopted as truth. In reality I DON'T KNOW the answer. However admitting that I don't know is very discomforting. Rather than saying that I don't know, I believe in my own lies LMAO.
Fuh... That is quite a mouthful. So Sarah, you are now looking at Sharudin the Almighty. The self proclaimed God of Sparta 4964 (which is nothing more than my imagination).
I can live like this for the next 21 years. By KBOOOM 2041 I reassess my position again. The problem is, I have no other profound reference other than Exploring Religion. Which means I will die [] (as) a nonbeliever who believes in his own lies.
HAHAHA... This is so funny Sarah, there is no truth beyond what we choose to believe. That means we can believe in anything and that is true. You can be a guy but because I believe you are a girl, therefore I marry you for eternity. Who is there to validate that? Definitely I cannot get the answer from you directly.
Don't worry Sarah, I believe you are a girl. That's what counts.
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