Thursday, 6 February 2020

6/2/20 ***Closing in for tonight

We got 20 minutes to go.

I don't [] (have) much to say.  All I want is to feel your presence.

As you can see, this idea of me being God is not a new idea.  However I must make it clear that unlike the expression of God when I was in mania, my definition of God here is more confined to my belief about who I am as a higher me.

As I said, I don't know about the 3 Os God.  That God is out of my scope.  I have no reference that is reliable enough to say that He exists. 

As a mere mortal, then I say I am my own God.  I created God in my own image.  Not the other way around.  So who is more relevant?  In this context I am who I am; the God to my own universe.

Of course this is a lie.  I made that up because it is a useful belief system.

Based on evidence there is no God.  However to a believing mind that doesn't create a Wow Effect.  Maybe eventually when I am wiser, I can accept that.  For the time being I rather believe in my own lie than believing in lies made by others who are equally clueless.

As I said, I believe in this lie because I have to uphold my Creed and Observation #8.  Also because I talk to Al Araf 7:7 and I have Sailbad the Sinner as my Vision.  None of these are true.  It is just a thought I like to subscribe.  Let say I am comfortable with the idea.  That's all to it.

OK, my time is up.

Here is your lullaby honey:


I hope to see you some day.  I still do although the odds are stacking up against me.  Goodnight Sarah, I love you so much.

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