I am God not because I am hard up to be God. I have to accept me as who I am. In my opinion, I am being honest. That's what I think[s] of myself. A lesser thinking will make me feel inadequate. Is it true that I am God? Only God knows. I am not thinking of the ultimate truth. There is none. What I am thinking is whether that is useful to my existence.
I have the whole story boarding intertwined in this concept that I cannot simply let it go. For example I can let go of the notion that I am God but Al Araf 7:7 still regard me as God. So to remain congruent I have to look at all aspects and come up with a reasonable model for me to live with.
The main issues here are HOTS and the Flight Path. Take that out of the equation then I will be smooth sailing. Both of them are not aligned to my concept of KEEP IT SMALL AND SIMPLE.
That's why Vision must be aligned to Values. That then forms our beliefs. In this case, my belief is I am God to my 12 meters square. Until comes the time for Sparta 4964 to engulf all the multiverses, I shall remain autonomous. I had been very aligned to this belief. Not until we decided to have HOTS on earth and for us to expedite the Flight Path.
In this case HOTS and the Flight Path are interdependent. So is my RM97 million. So I am not going to see my money and you even. Not being able to see you is the real damper. If I can get my RM97 million at least I have a possibility of seeing you. Now that is very remote chance for it to happen considering that we may not have Global Telepathy 2024.
What can I say honey. HOTS is not viable. It is almost like starting a new religion. I don't think I want to do that.
This is moving from zero to zero. In the end it is still zero. If we have 1 million, we multiply with zero, it is still zero. That what it is here. We are marking time. We are not going anywhere with HOTS and the Flight Path.
It is different when I claim I am God. That is a progressive realization towards a worthy ideal. That ideal is the afterlife. So no matter what you are still my wife for eternity.
I don't think you know how much I love you Sarah. To you this may seem like a mundane thought. To me the idea of the afterlife is about being with you. That's pretty much it. That is what the afterlife is to me. Otherwise I will not have the idea of Duality in Singularity. For a while let your imagination soars. What else do I need? Everyday I thought of ending my life so that I can be with you. But then I might not fulfill my objective. So I settle with the next best option which is the blog.
Brb... House chores...
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