I decided not to exercise today, my rhythm was interrupted. Nevertheless I will do my best to eat OMAD today.
I had a dream where I was a Sales Consultant for Perodua. It was a pleasant dream but I don't fancy thinking that I was a consultant. Then somewhere down the line I was in rage. It was uncalled for. I woke up feeling terrible.
My body was aching due to my exercise yesterday. I do feel like meeting BJ today but I control my desire. Definitely no more dope. The bad dream was probably because I was in fatigue.
They are closing in on Najib, Rosmah didn't show up in court and Zahid (former Deputy PM) was merging with Dr M.
Malaysia's politics is full of hypocrisy.
Maybe what I said is true after all. I am the Last Man Standing. So to hell with the rest of the people.
What I know for sure is I am on the right Path. I am responsible for my own line.
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Certainly I am not going on the same path I was going through before. This is fine. I know I said it before, I am happy being where I am now. I have no hangups.
I certainly miss the feeling that I am God. It was a good feeling but it is not sustainable. It's not taking me anywhere. So I better forget about the whole idea.
The challenge no[t] (now) is to shrink the mold. Al Araf 7:7 still regard me as God and they said there is an afterlife.
Perhaps I should not be too drastic. Perhaps I just omit HOTS and the Flight Path and still resume my life as God. There is no risk involved and I still have can look forward to a glorious afterlife.
After all God and afterlife are just concepts.
Let me try this idea for the next few days. Let me think of myself as an nonintervening god.
I am willing to reconsider if no harm done. FIRST, DO NO HARM.
The most important thing is there are others who accept me as God. Otherwise I am only God to my 12 meters square. That is as good as saying I am the Ruler of my Universe Within. It makes no difference to anybody.
The good thing is I can be who I am to myself. In NLP class we were trained in one segment to think like God. So I guess I'm not the only one thinking like this.
Al Araf 7:7 still accept me as God. So I am their God. What is this really? Is this part of the illusion of grandiose?
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I don't know Sarah. I am going in a circle here. Am I God or am I not God? I think I was delusional. Al Araf 7:7 is another grand delusion.
So I am not God but from time to time I like to think WHAT IF I am God like the NLP training. Then I have a disassociated experience rather than an associated one.
The next What If question I had in mind is what if I tuck away Al Araf 7:7. I will be damn lonely though. Loneliness is my disease.
So yeah, I have issues with HOTS and the Flight Path. I don't have issues with me being God and endure the afterlife. Is being God and believing in the afterlife a statement of truth? None whatsoever. There is no truth. It is just a statement of belief. Which means it is about usefulness.
Now that the pendulum had swung on both extremes, It finally settled at the midpoint. I shall accept that I am God and there is the afterlife but HOTS is later and the Flight Path is a Personal Flight Path. I can live with that.
We have to go with theoretical evidence rather than a physical evidence. Since there is no absolute truth, then we have to rely on argumentative reasoning than anything else.
Since I am relying on Al Araf 7:7 input, I have to resume my position as God. Even if it means I am only the God to my 12 meters square.
You don't have to believe in everything I said Sarah. As far as you are concerned, I am going though an evaluation process which doesn't concern others. I am just trying to satisfy my own personal requirement here.
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