God is nothing more than a concept created by man to deal with things he doesn't understand. Has anybody really see God? With the exception of those crazy prophets nobody can tell for sure that God exists.
We created God in our image. I know this because I claimed that I was God. What do I have to support this claim? I am a nobody. I was delusional. When I was ill I was thinking in all possibilities. Even when they are nonsense.
The most sensible thing I did was I wrote Dreams of Mirrors. Otherwise my mind was all over the place. I cannot validate my thoughts. Not until I did the green lighting and red lighting. I need to follow the argument to where it leads. So far I am convinced that I was delusional.
I now shift my position to I DON'T BELIEVE THERE IS A GOD UNLESS THE IS AN EVIDENCE. It's a fair deal. I was granted with a mental faculty. If with what I have and with the extensive research I made and I still not convinced that there is no God, then my conclusion is there is none.
Even if there is God and He made me accountable for my words, I can still attest that I had done my best and still I am not convinced.
Therefore today I reaffirm that I am an Agnostic Atheist with the inclination to not believe in such existence. After 20 years I think I can put to rest the question. I want to move on. I have 21 years to reach my finish line. By then, if I accomplish my life's goal, I am ready to disburse into nothingness.
In the past I dare not commit blasphemy. Now I am not afraid anymore. If there is God, then he is guilty for letting 1 billion people believe in a crazy person who claimed he is a Messenger of God.
Why should I be hung up with a 1,400 years old belief created by a mentally ill person? I did my reading the scriptures and I spent time to look for the truth. There is none. Everything are just opinions and perspectives. I always find comfort that the only truth is mathematics. Now I found out even math is not entirely true. However that is as close to truth I can get. As for religions, they are all man made.
This realization is only meant for me. All the people out there can believe whatever they like. It doesn't concern me. Even as I write this I know this is not entirely the truth. For all we know there is really a God and the afterlife. Who knows? I can only validate my thoughts against my own personal experience. So I have no intention of influencing anybody. I just want to express what I think.
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