Imagine, the last couple of days I was even thinking about dismantling Crew 36 and deleting all my blogs. I should not be hasty with my action. Already I'm regretting deleting my pre 2018 postings. I will be regretting further decisions I make during depression.
Suicidal thoughts did creep in. I used to be distressed by these kinds of thoughts before. Nowadays I know they will pass. The only thing is I don't [] (know) when they will pass. So now I know I can bounce back as fast as after 3 days. That's quite a relief.
With this Live Music Radio I am more or less set for the future. There is less interruption and the signal is more stable.
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So yes Sarah, I am back on my feet. I don't know when depression going to hit me. I was worried for a while but now that I can ride the wave, I am not too concerned that I will not bounce back.
I got to fill Lizzie's cup. She just came back.
Later Sarah...
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Some watches are meant to be paired especially the Admiral and Skipper. I am wearing them right now.
I understand that I talked a lot about my watches. That's how I increase the pleasure. Instead of just watching them, I now also talk about them.
That gets me in the zone.
The watches define my Mental Model. Right now I feel like talking about Crew 36.
We are still sailing to Constellation NNW. This is just me letting my thought soars. I imagine Sailbad the Sinner is my spacecraft. This is not reality as I reminded you. I just like to make believe all these. It makes my imagination rich.
So come imagine with me Sarah. Envision that we will be sailing to a faraway land. Pretty much like I want you to imagine we are sailing to the South Seas. The irony is I am never comfortable being on the ocean. To me the ocean is not something you want to mess with.
This ship is different though. This is a spacecraft. It cuts through space. It doesn't travel like the rockets do. It travels between our dimension to the next. So instead of traveling through meteors and void it goes through this kaleidoscope and we are constantly mesmerized by the ever changing patterns and colors. It's like going through a tunnel and the view keeps on changing.
I am telling you all these so that my unconscious mind will pick it up and add it as part of my consciousness when I die. I am the director of my own story. Too bad I can't produce my own cinematic movie. I however can make do with the bits and pieces that I gathered from the internet and come up with a pretty rudimentary representation of how my journey going to look like.
Our destination is the Dragon Planet. This is how it looks like:
These are just imaginations. They keep me entertained. At least I know where I am going, how to get there and how the journey is going to be like. I completely trust my wisdom within on all these. They are already real to me. As if I am already there.
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