That settles it. Nothing complicated.
As it is I don't want to deal with External Affairs. I want to enjoy what I have. This afternoon while watching the videos on Swiss Army Knives, I was appreciating my own knives. So I found a new way to appreciate my belongings. While watching others appreciating their belongings, I appreciate mine at the same time.
For a man who don't have much money, I tend to have plenty of collections:
- Figurines
- Watches
- Books
- Caps
- Knives
- Shoes
That's already aplenty. I guess what Azzue envied about me is I can be happy without having to go for more.
I know you expect much more than that from me. However Sarah, without sounding conceited I am complete. If I decided to do nothing of no use, I am a super rich man. I have so much time that I don't know what to do with it.
It's not that I don't want to be productive but if the meaning of productivity is to acquire more things, then I must say that I don't need those extra stuff. I do like chatting with you though. That is productivity to me. Reading is productive. So is writing. I guess I am not motivated by money. I am not interested to be a consumer. I just want to be a creator.
What is it that I really like doing? I simply like to write, listen to songs and look at my watches.
I already got that. Other than that I like to eat. Now I realize I can eat well without paying through my nose at Ikea. Eating and paying a hefty bill takes away the pleasure in eating.
Sarah, can I be happy and not be motivated to make money? I guess I can. After all I am retired. Now as a retiree I can think about going on vacations and visit far away places. But the truth is Sarah I am not like that. This is exactly where I want to be. Happily enjoying my 12 meters square.
I have the comfort of having some money in the bank. That is peace of mind to me. I don't think I am going to be that happy vacationing or dining at fancy restaurants. All that burn holes in my pocket.
Just now I was thinking about buying a new pocket knife. Then when I did a cost benefit analysis, I found out that I don't need it. The satisfaction of not owning is as good as owning it. It allows me to appreciate my current collection.
As for clothes, all I need is to be thin. Then I got plenty I can wear. The only thing now is I enjoy eating more than being thin. I need to change that [] (in) my association with food. What I do is I skip dinner. Gosh, food is so enjoyable when Lizzie cooks.
I was looking at the figurines collection of other people. I think they are a bit excessive. I like my collection better. I can see them in one single view. I can talk to them too LOL.
I guess I collect but I am not excessive. At the very least I look at them daily. In short, they make [] (me) feel happy, like my watches.
Sarah, you know me. All I want is health and happiness. At this moment I am at the pinnacle of my happiness. I hope you are happy for me. I may be sounding like a conceited dickhead but seriously honey, this is all that I want.
Do I need permission to be happy Sarah? Or worse, do I need to conform to the expectation of the society for me to enjoy what I am enjoying? I don't think so. Just like I enjoy thinking that I am God. I don't bother other people with my thoughts. It is for my personal pleasure. What counts is I am living my life as I deem fit. That's all to it.
There is nothing for you to envy. All it takes i[t] (is) to find out what is the limit to your indulgence. You satisfy that, you satisfy the rest. I think I made a good decision to indulge in watches. I got to wear them every day. As I told you, you can't do that with cars, perfume and clothes. With watches, you can wear FOUR at a time. Kikuo Ibe even wore six!
To be realistic four is something that makes me feel like on top of the world. Two is just nice. Most of the time I wear two.
I like this Ibe guy. Never give up!
I am tempted to get these models:
That is me being lustful. Even when I look at these photos, it's like looking at the photo of a naked woman. I rather spend on watches than spend on Gayshas.
The Casio AQ is selling for RM144. Damn good price.
There are many reasons to buy but I guess the final question I got to ask is do I need it? Straight away I am in no mood to consider the purchase.
When I look at these watches and compare with my current watches, I am grateful I don't have excess. As it is I have a perfect collection. I have the Seiko SNE 107 to wear with my NATO straps. I have the Seiko SNE 451 as my bracelet watch. I have the Garmin 25 as my alarm and my GPS watch. I have the Casio Tough Solar as my get ready timer. I have the Mudman as my exercise timer. Then I have the Indulgence as my stopwatch. The Scientist as my Saturday grocery timer and my tennis watch. Finally I have the Rasta as my coffee timer.
These two are my lustful acquisitions. I won't do that. If I buy them I will have less pleasure with my existing collection. I want to wear all of them for the next 15 years at least.
You know what I was thinking? Here I am pretty contented with 8 watches. Imagine those people without arms. When I think about it I feel very grateful indeed.
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Actually if we are diligent and patient, we can live a contented life with very little to spend. For example, instead of buying the RM12 Vietnamese Iced Coffee, I make my own Nescafe C Kosong with ice. It tastes better because I make it to suit my taste.
Now if only I am diligent enough to cook my own lunch. I did that before, but I scratched the nonstick surface and Lizzie made some noise. So there goes my brief episode as a cook.
For the time being it is Super Combo Nasi Lemak or the Nasi Van. I had not been eating OMAD for a very long time. I think tomorrow I'll do that. Lizzie gave me RM15 a day but she expects me to only spend RM10. Instead I spend RM8 and pocket the RM2 in case I need money for parking.
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Drinking Nescafe C Kosong and eating croissant is very satisfying indeed. I skip rice tonight.
I need to go back to OMAD soon. During the Chinese New Year period, I had been eating the Pineapple Tarts. Also I ate a lot of rice.
Wait, wait... Do I bore you with my rambling Sarah? What else do I do to be connected to you? I can't be gossiping. That's not me. Matters pertaining to HOTS and the Flight Path? Water under the bridge. What else do I do? Nothing else but ramble. That's my lifeline.
Don't you think I don't realize how idiotic some of these conversations are? Especially I can watch tv or read instead? Well I did it would you believe, because I am so in love with you.
Isn't it obvious? I love you more than I love being with Lizzie watching tv. Primarily because there's nothing on tv nowadays. Lizzie likes to watch those house renovation and food channels. A total waste of time in my opinion.
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I do like to continue reading Exploring Religion tonight. I never finish the whole book. I'll make a point to finish it this time. Let me hang the laundry and pickup Princess from the MRT, then I read before bed.
In the meantime I want to spend my cash on you.
Look at it this way, the way I am spending my time with you, no man can ever to that like I do. If I am a millionaire, basically I am showering you with cash every minute I am blogging.
Even if I have a lot of money, you can split that with Lizzie. I just take my daily meal allowance. I don't know what else I will do with a lot of money. I am happy just spending RM6 k a year.
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Honey, you won't believe what I saw on tv. Notice just now I talked about people without arms? Well they interviewed this guy who makes mechanical hand for kids with no hands!
My gosh, I said to myself. Talking about Cosmic Habit Force. Now tell me Sarah, is that a coincidence or am I truly on the right Path?
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Princess is arriving at 10:30 pm. So I guess I read while waiting for her.
Here is you lullaby:
I never get bored of saying I love you very much. Goodnight Sarah, my darling angel, my Eternal Flame.
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