Aka King of Nothing.
As it is I no longer care about the outside world. I tested the idea with Ar Razi. He didn't take it too well. I said I am self-actualizing as God. His reply was he feels sad for me because I don't have anything else to achieve.
I don't get it. Isn't he suppose to be happy for me? What's his problem?
I know, Radzi as I said expected for people to agree with him. Those who don't subscribe to his thinking and his perverted version of the Quran are a menace.
That doesn't bother me at all. Another one bites the dust. Nobody is going to rain on my parade. I am going on a subtraction process. This is the elimination process.
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Man, this Lite is really my choice for sure. The songs are so in sync. I don't miss TraXX at all.
This is the 5th day I start on a clean slate. The roads on all directions are wide open. I can pick and choose. I choose simplification and miniaturization. The simpler and smaller the better. I am beginning to feel the effect after I discarded TraXX. This is the third day I am on Lite. My mental landscape had improved tremendously.
So I am special because I choose to be special. For a start I choose the right radio station. Next, I choose to read the right books.
I still cannot do OMAD. Lizzie cooked bihun.
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So if you notice the trend, I will continue to shrink until I have you, Lizzie and the kids. The smallest empirical formation, the Tetrahedron. There are only 4 of us and Lite. That is sufficient.
I intend to even cut off Yati. I will only communicate with her if she contact me. This is marvelous Sarah. I feel so light.
Definitely I will not contact Munek and Zizi. KISS all the way. I am moving away from being the fox to being the hedgehog.
Think about it Sarah. If I can be happy the way I am, why should I risk my happiness by being a conformist? Unless I am a conformist then it doesn't make sense for me to conform.
Here I am living in the Eye of the Tornado, why do I want to be in the vortex?
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I think everybody has a bit of craziness in them. Nobody is perfect. The only thing is can we tolerate the craziness and to what degree is the craziness effecting us. If we can manage the level of craziness, then we get along. Otherwise we take a separate road.
I tolerated Lizzie's craziness much. One of it is when she insisted to drive a manual. Others include only driving to and from the school. Other than that I drive her around. The other is paying bills manually. I did it because I love her. With the rest there is no love lost. As a matter of fact, they are liabilities. They impose their belief systems on me.
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